I don’t believe I’ve shared much about my struggle with my weight. I have yo-yo-ed between 190 – 220 for years. And that’s not very healthy. About 11 years ago I managed to get down to 160 and I was so proud and I looked damn sexy. But then I gained that weight back because I hated having to watch every little thing I was eating. And so, I slowly gained back the weight. In 2011 I hit my highest weigh of 233 lbs. I absolutely HATED the way I looked. I was so uncomfortable. Nothing fit me properly and I struggled with every little thing (tying my shoes, bending over, walking any kind of distance, etc.).
I recently started a round of hCG. I have done a TON of research on this protocol and did not jump into it willy-nilly.
I started at 228.8 lbs. 38 days later I’m at 201.8. 🙂
The next 3 weeks are all about stabilization. I should be concentrating on staying within 2 pounds (up or down – because fluctuation is normal) of 201.8 lbs. After the 3 weeks of (hopeful) stabilization, I am allowed to eat more freely, but I **know** that doing so could be catastrophic. For me, I will always struggle to get to and maintain a healthy weight (according to WebMD, my “ideal weight” is between 108 – 145 lbs).
Side note: I highly doubt that I will ever reach 145 lbs, and I’m okay with that. 160 is a good weight for my body type, I believe.
So, the point of what I’m saying is this… I will always have to be mindful of the foods I consume. I will always have to be conscious of my activity level. That is, if I don’t want to blow my weight out of the water (again) I have to be mindful and conscious of these things.
The reason I want to get to a healthier weight is because I just want to be healthier. I want to live a long, healthy life. And, of course, I want to feel better about the way I look. 😉
I do love the way I look right now. But I know another 20 pounds down I’ll love my look even more. So, while the next 3 weeks is all about maintaining my 201.8, soon enough my journey will continue to take me lower.
(I am always having to remind myself to be patient. #PatienceIsNotMyVirtue)